my superpower

i have the ability to delude myself into thinking
there is more to a person than
is so obviously there

never mind that when you and i talk
you must become derailed and speak
excessively to at least three other people
(strangers, sometimes.)
at speeds that exceed a speeding train

you cannot remember what it was that i do with my time
or that i am in school
or that i like to look at the sky too much

your blue eyes freeze me
your inked skin in the sun
i am left imagining what it would be like
if we could spend more than a spasm
of ten minutes alone together

what it would be like is
how it is already:
pretty shitty.