to be fair

it is not so bad.

but it is not so good, either.

i have made an essential list of what i need soon:

-thunderstorms 

-fireflies

-cats

-nabeyaki udon

-cha no yu

-a giant, civil war graveyard

-guitar lessons

-a library that smells old

-physical contact from someone who does not utterly disgust me 

-a warm day without 18 mph cold wind 

-stimulating conversation

-silence

-a room so dark, it is always night