i have behaved as a spoiled and entitled individual and i have many regrets.
i am forever grateful. and the sunsets have been so loving and pink lately. there were rabbits in a hole in the yard getting warm because they'd just been born, and crickets and frogs in the morning.
but when i'm alone i am savage.
"i don't want anything from anyone," i say. and i say it enough times until it sinks in. and when i think i deserve a break, or a friend, or another beer, i say it again. one day soon it will stick. like the years piling up. it will be true and keep me safe.